Going with the Flow

fireworksCan you believe the year is half over already? On one hand, it felt like winter hung on as long as it possibly could have, so it’s a bit of a shock that it’s finally July 1st. On the other… holy wow where has the time gone???

As some of you know, this past year has been one of major upheaval for me. Some of it has been unwelcome and stressful–at the fault of absolutely no one, because life is just stressful from time to time. (So stop thinking I mean you! You know who you are! 😉 ) Some of it has turned out to have a lovely silver lining. All of it is for the greater good, so I’m just happily going along with it.

Last week and this week have been/are going to be wonderfully busy since Youngest – Jake – is home for two weeks, and Bestie – Heather – arrives Sunday for a week. Plus it’s the Fourth holiday, and this summer has been gorgeous so far.

As I wrote in my last post, it was important to me to give up my pen name and come out as myself. I think a big part of that was a result of the personal struggles I’ve been dealing with the past almost three years–a scary health diagnosis, the implosion of my publisher, several other minor problems that seemed so much bigger as they were happening.

My writing has suffered as a result. I really, REALLY wanted to be one of those authors who thrived in the face of adversity, but it didn’t happen. The more pressure I put on myself to write, write, write in spite of XYZ, it just wasn’t possible for me. (Sorry, Nora, I was unable to stop whining and write.) So I gave myself permission to let it go. And it felt really good to take the pressure off.

Because I was struggling with weak story ideas, and no matter how hard I tried–from pushing myself to try to reach large word goals to going to the opposite extreme of setting very small goals–I just could not put words on the page. And it was messing with my head worse than the health/living/financial problems.

But a funny thing happened a few days ago. I was driving home from taking Jake back to his dad’s house for the night, listening to the Lumineers’ Cleopatra (aka the crack album), and I got a plot bunny. Not only did I ge one, but I think it might be a good one.

I’m not making any promises, especially not to myself. I could very well put up a post nest week that starts with the words “JUST KIDDING!!! THE WELL IS REALLY DRY, Y’ALL!” (That’s how wishy-washy I’ve been lately.) But it felt good to get a fresh idea that feels like it has strong potential.

So… Jayne might be gone, but apparently I’m not entirely out of ideas.

I hope you have a lovely holiday weekend. What are your plans?

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2 thoughts on “Going with the Flow

  1. Nothing much. Just traveling across the country to connect with the best friend EVER (no matter what name she goes by) and play with TONS of family!! I am immeasurably proud of you. Just so you know. ❤️❤️❤️

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